Some may say that I have lost everything and, in many ways they would be right. All the material possessions I had have gone but one thing that I have gained is time.
As I am not working right now (Doctors orders) at least I have the benefit of being able to hide myself away when I’m feeling down, stressed or longing for a drink.
When I was still working, the constant pressure of phone calls, e-mails and text messages seemed to come at me like an avalanche every day and people have come to expect instant communication as well; didn’t you get my e-mail?, I left you a message, Where have you been, I texted you ages ago.
We live in a world of 24x7 instant communication and we can’t escape. People send texts whilst walking down the street, talk on the phone while being served in a shop. I even saw a gentleman on the phone whilst urinating in a public toilet the other day. What! Can’t you even be off-line for that?
I used to be like that. I’d be the one with my blackberry on the table in a restaurant. I would interrupt one call to take another. But now that’s all gone and I don’t miss it a bit.
I wouldn’t suggest for a moment that anyone follow my path to find a bit of peace and quiet but everyone should make a bit of ‘Me Time’ available for themselves once in a while.
It’s really not difficult and the outside world probably won’t even notice. So you don’t answer your e-mails for a couple of hours. So what?
I am sure that the constant pressure of instant communication only added to my problems. Perhaps if I had taken some time out now and again to just relax, my problems wouldn’t have become so severe.
I know it’s not easy for most people but my advice to anyone, whether in recovery or not, is take some time out. Give your brain a break.